Post by c_kidd on Mar 10, 2024 6:28:23 GMT
Heya,
Y'all can just call me C for now, but I've been craving to share my story on a therian forum for a while now and I figured now was probably time to do so as my identity has been turned on its head recently. Basically, I think I experienced a shift that was induced by a high dose of weed back in January and haven't felt the same about my identity since.
I'm not a weed user at all but the three or four times I did it I was able to feel a possible "shift". The first time was easily the strongest with the hallucinations, mental change, and sensations I experienced. Essentially, I hallucinated that I was sharing my body with and being given access to the body of some unknown animal (unsure of the exact species or shape. It could have been anything from a coyote or dog to possibly even a bear).
While tripping on my bathroom floor, I felt like I had met a long lost friend when this animal merged with my consciousness and we shared each other's bodies simultaneously. There was no verbal or words exchanged. It was all just innate as we were in each other's presence. All I could exactly pinpoint from her was that she was a mother, she was exhausted and barely standing, and that she ready to nurse. I couldn't explain why or what this was. It just happened like that. Regardless, I shared that moment with her for a long while, remaining with her and sharing her physical weakness and vulnerability. My dog actually walked in on us on the floor and nuzzled me to make sure I was doing alright. I could tell that she absolutely appreciated his gesture. I was able to replicate this interaction with this same creature on subsequent weed trips with variations of running together and rolling around, though to diminishing degrees leaving me with a constant nagging and urge to reconnect with this being again.
I've given up weed since as I wasn't able to use it as a gateway to interact with her. But I still feel her inside of my chest and I can't go a day without thinking about her atleast once. I've had some degree of interest in anthropomorphic animals but never considered myself a furry. I've also dabbled in petplay which is very gratifying in its own right, but I'm not sure of its relationship to my possible theriantropy.
I guess after all of this I suppose it'd be nice to hear what y'all have to say. I haven't felt comfortable in my own skin since and I frequently have feelings of something trying to claw out of my chest as if it's trapped inside me, even as I'm writing this. I know she's in my head still, and I suppose it'd be nice to know how to pursue exploring this deeper as I've hit a dead end trying on my own. I'd love to connect with this entity while sober and not under the influence of weed but I'm just not sure how to do so.
I appreciate y'all,
-C
Y'all can just call me C for now, but I've been craving to share my story on a therian forum for a while now and I figured now was probably time to do so as my identity has been turned on its head recently. Basically, I think I experienced a shift that was induced by a high dose of weed back in January and haven't felt the same about my identity since.
I'm not a weed user at all but the three or four times I did it I was able to feel a possible "shift". The first time was easily the strongest with the hallucinations, mental change, and sensations I experienced. Essentially, I hallucinated that I was sharing my body with and being given access to the body of some unknown animal (unsure of the exact species or shape. It could have been anything from a coyote or dog to possibly even a bear).
While tripping on my bathroom floor, I felt like I had met a long lost friend when this animal merged with my consciousness and we shared each other's bodies simultaneously. There was no verbal or words exchanged. It was all just innate as we were in each other's presence. All I could exactly pinpoint from her was that she was a mother, she was exhausted and barely standing, and that she ready to nurse. I couldn't explain why or what this was. It just happened like that. Regardless, I shared that moment with her for a long while, remaining with her and sharing her physical weakness and vulnerability. My dog actually walked in on us on the floor and nuzzled me to make sure I was doing alright. I could tell that she absolutely appreciated his gesture. I was able to replicate this interaction with this same creature on subsequent weed trips with variations of running together and rolling around, though to diminishing degrees leaving me with a constant nagging and urge to reconnect with this being again.
I've given up weed since as I wasn't able to use it as a gateway to interact with her. But I still feel her inside of my chest and I can't go a day without thinking about her atleast once. I've had some degree of interest in anthropomorphic animals but never considered myself a furry. I've also dabbled in petplay which is very gratifying in its own right, but I'm not sure of its relationship to my possible theriantropy.
I guess after all of this I suppose it'd be nice to hear what y'all have to say. I haven't felt comfortable in my own skin since and I frequently have feelings of something trying to claw out of my chest as if it's trapped inside me, even as I'm writing this. I know she's in my head still, and I suppose it'd be nice to know how to pursue exploring this deeper as I've hit a dead end trying on my own. I'd love to connect with this entity while sober and not under the influence of weed but I'm just not sure how to do so.
I appreciate y'all,
-C