Psi Vampires

[Synderach]

Are there any psi vampires out there? I'd like to ask a few questions and discuss. 

[G.D.]

Greetings.

Psi/Sang/Eros are words used to describe method of feeding, which some vampires take to heart. Many do not, but personal opinion regarding vampires and their existence seems to be quite strong in the community.

If you'd like to define us that way, I am what qualifies as a 'psi' vampire. I've been in the vampire communities for over a decade. If you have questions I don't mind answering them.

[Synderach]

Well the reason I ask is because I suspect I may be one. But I'm ignorant of a lot of things so I want to tread carefully in order not to offend.
I have had episodes, of some sort of exchange of energy with others. The most memorable one for me was when I was 14 and I was talking to my boyfriend at the time. I was feeling really low and emotionally exhausted, but then suddenly I felt a surge of energy and my boyfriend at the same time felt suddenly drained. I seem to draw energy from being in crowds even though I am normally an introvert. I seem to get a surge of energy from being in a storm. Sometimes I can even intentionally draw from someone. I try not to though because it seems wrong to just take it, but if I have gone a long time without, I feel low and drained again.
So I guess my first question is: is there a possibility that what I'm experiencing is feeding? If so, what is the best way to do so without draining others?
I've read a few articles on SAVA but there is a lot I still don't know, and I'm not really sure where to start.

[G.D.]

Let's start with some background on what makes a vampire.

Vampires are beings that, by nature, not type, feed from other living organisms or natural sources at an increased/more condensed rate than other living organisms. The nature of the vampire is heavily rooted in concepts regarding the non-physical and energy, as 'sanguine' vampires at not possible despite adamant arguments by others. The only thing that defines a vampire is this: A being that has the need and/or requirement to consume more non-physical energy than beings around it. Vampires are what I would consider a nature, not a 'kind'. Because vampiric entities can also be other things, such as a beast of some sort, a life oriented nature guardian, and so on. We define the above because everything alive consumes energy to survive. Both physically and non-physically. Just like you eat through out the day to maintain your physical health, you are also consuming energy non-physically to maintain your energy and your system. Every living creature does this. This is not something solely vampires do. So take this into account when attempting to discern your nature. Vampires can feed from any other ambient source just like everyone else. From the earth and elements around them. Feeding on people is not a requirement. And normal people, non-vampiric people, feed on people, too! You can be vampiric but not be a vampire, if that makes sense. It's actually quite common that people will feed off of each other in high stress or high emotion situations.

One of the best things you can begin to do when attempting to discern this nature is actively study your energy intake. You need to figure out if your intake is different from someone else's, how it's different or not, and why it is or not. When I figured myself out one of the very first things I noticed about myself was this! My energy in take in comparison to humans around me was absolutely massive. From there I delved into my core and became familiar with my energy pattern, or signature. Vampires have a slight difference in signature (people also use the world vibration) than other living creatures. Figuring out how to sense this specific pattern and compare it to other people will also be one of the best ways to understand yourself.

I want to emphasize that vampires at not a 'kind' of being like a species, but rather a different type of 'vibration'. A nature. And that the only thing that defines a vampire is the in take difference to maintain a healthy system. Feeding from people is not a 'be all end all' tell because people feed from people, too. And we're not limited to this method of feeding. Nor are we limited by method of feeding in general. Vampires just have preferences. I have seen and heard many arguments against that specific fact, but I have not met a vampire yet that I couldn't help see this was simply a preference with a touch of unknowing, not a limit.

If you find that your energy intake is different, first attempt to figure out why. It could be due to several things, such as a nature, your physical health effects this, your emotions effect this, your overall age and complexity effect this requirement amount, and so on. It's a journey, and a bit of a struggle, to define one's self as vampiric without buying into hysteria and the overall mythology, which hardly has anything right. If you know other vampires, try comparing your energy and intake to them! That would make things a lot easier, aha.

[Synderach]

Thanks, Parth. Sounds like I still have a lot of research and soul searching to do. And energy measuring lol. I'll let you know how it goes.

[G.D.]

Feel free to hit me up via PM or ping me here if you need to discuss anything further.

Ke 'ano is also of a vampiric nature and semi-active. They might have further insight for you.

One of the best things you can do for yourself on this path is to ignore all the mythology. Some of the oldest from the East, specifically particular threads from China have some of the right ideas. But none of them are perfect.

[Synderach]

So I keep running across articles that basically equate energy vampires to the likes of sociopaths. I would think a vampire would have normal relationships despite having a need for extra energy. I can't really see it having anything to do with ones psychological state necessarily. Am I off base?

[G.D.]

Yeah, pretty far off base.

People fear what they don't understand. Vampires are some of the most demonized/scrutinized energy beings out there in the new age and modern energy sensitive communities. These communities are not only rife with misinformation, there's a good chunk of fear mongering to be found in almost every corner. This hatred and fear stems from a lack of understanding, but also from the fear of being around something 'other than human'. Human beings are already awful to each other on completely unfounded ideologies, such as the things we see with racism or hatred for nationality. This type of ignorance stems beyond these issues and can infect other aspects of our lives.

Vampires are indeed predatory beings, but so are humans. While vampiric mentalities, in my experience and opinion, are slightly different than the average person's, we're not these cold hearted sociopathic monsters people want to portray us as. I'll not get into the rant about how sociopathy is not even a real medical term, rofl. We live normal lives, have normal interests, and have very meaningful and completely normal relationships with non-vampiric entities/beings. Most any self respecting vampire doesn't feed from people, and if they really do care for their partner it's a little counter intuitive to harm them, don't'cha think?

You'll come to find that googling information on vampires outside of vampire centric or founded communities won't provide you with very much. We're a good scapegoat people like to fall back on when things 'go wrong'. Berated and abused, it's a never ending love hate relationship we have with society. It's why we have a tendency to be closely guarded. I get enough flak just for being open about the topic and seeking to educate. It never fails to amaze me how many people will ask me the next day, "Hey I was feeling drained. Were you thinking about me?". When, y'know, that's not how it bloody works. We're everyone's favorite monster .

[Synderach]

Yeah I was getting really confused trying to do research. There seems to be a lot of crap out there. I really appreciate you being open and straightforward with me.

[G.D.]

Of course. While I can only speak from my experiences and observations from my time in the (vampire) community, I can at least provide all the information I have collected. Along with what I experience personally. I know that I'll never change everyone's hateful opinion of us, but I like to think that maybe I can make a positive impact eventually if I continue helping and educating. So I don't mind answering any type of question, really.

Those type of demonizing websites are great for a cackle if you're bored, though. Some of the things I've read that are supposedly about 'me' and my kind absolutely blow me away. Some lady even sells spray-able vampire 'deterrent' as a legitimate product these days. It doesn't work, obviously .

[Ke 'ano]

Synderach , now that I've finally gotten around to replying to this thread I find myself without much to say, except for that I agree with G.D. . She has summed up everything I would touch on. The stigma against vampires, which is often written by those who lack a comprehensive understanding of what we are, causes a vast majority of online resources to be absolute trash. I have yet to find an online resource that has taught me anything of substance, aside from other vampires, such as Geist. With that beings said, my metaphorical doors are always open if you have any questions as well. Feel free to PM me or ping me in one of these threads and I will reply as promptly as I can.

[Synderach]

@ke'ano thank you! Yes, Geist has been a great help so far. Mainly I think my next step is figuring out my intake and needs as far as energy. It's not going to be easy since I know I haven't been "breathing" properly so to speak. I also haven't taken good care of my physical body either.
I would like to ask you both about how you came to your understanding of your nature? I have some of the "symptoms" of being a vampire but it could all be due to outside circumstances.

[G.D.]

Hey there.

It's a good thing you put 'symptoms' in quotations, aha. Despite what many online 'resources' say, we're not deficient or suffering from any sort of condition. There's nothing ailing us that dictates our intake requirements. I say this because you have likely, or will very much likely, come into contact with 'theories' pertaining to this notion. Such assumptions people have made are incorrect in that realm. We're just us . Not sick by any means.

When it comes to our energy intake and maintaining our systems non-physically, there's a few things to take into account. Your non-physical energy system can be thought of like your physical immune and nerve systems. This non-physical system regulates the influx and outflux of energy for your core, or your soul. So people who don't know that this exists can often experience symptoms of sickness or ailments on either side, due to their non-physical system being unhealthy or out of whack. And just like we experience things such as the flu, or chronic physical or mental illnesses on the physical side, these ailments can readily effect, and do, the non-physical. Stress, high emotion, the flu, chronic diseases/conditions such as lupus or eczema (;p), and so on all effect this invisible system of ours. When people aren't expecting or knowing of these, the ailing of this system can exacerbate other physical symptoms we have. And most definitely effects influx of energy, or how much we may need in that time.

On the flip side, you don't have to be ailing from something to require an abnormal influx either. Growth as an entity can require your system to make a more conscious effort with your energy intake. Change and growth are some of the most common system disruptions that don't pertain to a sickness of any sort. When people train to become more energy aware, they're suddenly shot into an awareness of this system you are now exploring. This can cause a sense of disorientation as you attempt to try and 'maintain' this new found aspect of yourself. It's a lot like trying to focus on your breathing. It becomes labored and can even irritate your body if you focus too hard on it. So having that influx or outflux being disrupted when you are simply learning how to interact and control the non-physical is something every student/newbie experiences. This process also inspires what I mentioned above: Growth. Such means that you need more energy to maintain yourself.

Experiencing disruptions due to the above sources can take months (sometimes) to figure out or have settle down. I tend to caution people against assuming they're vampiric in nature because of this. There's simply so many things that can disrupt the flow of that aspect of you. It takes a lot of time and some figuring out to really determine the source. People who jump to conclusions and assume the vampiric nature end up not having a great time. Once they start trying to 'act' like a vampire (ho boy...) they find rather in their face conflicts with their system and the attempted forced behaviors and patterns. Can cause a lot of unneeded stress. It's definitely worth it to make sure.

And of course because we can't individually dictate identity outside of ourselves... sometimes we just have to nod and watch them self destruct. I've seen such a thing play out way too many times . But I'm rambling.

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I already laid out how I determined my identity. Took a good number of years to solidify the idea. I had the suspicion when I was 16 and ran with it. Didn't gather enough data and methods of comparison until I was 19. It's definitely a journey.

EDIT: If I wasn't clear about my journey I will happily take the time to write out a more detailed account. Simply request this. I won't be bothered.