Questioning new kintype?

[Flint]

Hiyah there, I'm very confused on this, so I will explain as best as I can.

So recently I think I've been discovering a new kintype of sort? I'm not sure if it's a kintype but what I do know is that it's a sort of animalistic creature, similar to that of a werewolf however it's unclear if it is a wolf specifically. It may not be a kintype since it isn't something that I identify as, but it's here. It's rather bloodthirsty, and it seems to be protective of people I care about, example is if someone suggests hurting someome I care about it instantly jumps to "HURT THEM" not in words, but a very strong feeling. It's only here sometimes, any help as to what it could be? If you need more information I can try my best to explain on this, thank you for reading and possibly replying!


Edit: I know it's not a kintype but I am unsure of what else it could be. I do generally rp quite a bit and gain muses through that, however this creature is different from that, as my muses have their own bodies and they do things outside of myself (like interacting with an environment related to what I generally rp them in), however the 'werewolf' doesn't 'have' a body of sorts, it's like a separate mind in my own? I'm not ready to play with the idea of being a system however.

Side note- anyone have any meditating tips for someone with ADHD? I can't seem to get my mind to stop.

[Flint]

Replying too add a little more information.

The creature, whatever it is, seems to be almost an extension of my own mind, as it has very similar thoughts/feelings towards people I know. It definitely has some similarities however some differences as well, such as being a very blood thirsty animal, and having more animal-like instincts. It also seems to be bored all the time? It wants and wants and wants, but not ever wanting a specific thing.
I'd really appreciate some help with this. qvq

[G.D.]

Have you considered you're simply confusing aspects of yourself for being something separate? Everything in the first post sounds like a normal reaction to the situations described. As anyone would have that reaction if someone they cared about was in danger. 'Bloodthirsty' isn't a trait that's exclusive to non-human animals. Humans are in fact quite violent, especially when allowed to be. I would take some time to really think about these feelings and how they relate to you as a conscious being. Meditation would also help along with taking the time to write out your experiences in a journal. Fluctuations in feeling, desire, emotion/instinct are common for the biological creatures we are. Physically and mentally/spiritually.

I know plenty of werewolves who are calm level-headed people.

[Flint]

Sept 20, 2016 2:45:05 GMT G.D. said:

Have you considered you're simply confusing aspects of yourself for being something separate? Everything in the first post sounds like a normal reaction to the situations described. As anyone would have that reaction if someone they cared about was in danger. 'Bloodthirsty' isn't a trait that's exclusive to non-human animals. Humans in fact quite violent, especially when allowed to be. I would take some time to really think about these feelings and how they relate to you as a conscious being. Meditation would also help along with taking the time to write out your experiences in a journal. Fluctuations in feeling, desire, emotion/instinct are common for the biological creatures we are. Physically and mentally/spiritually.

I know plenty of werewolves who are calm level-headed people.

Ah, yes that could be true. This may just require more introspection into myself. Though I find meditation difficult to achieve, due to my mind never wanting to quiet down. Even in the quiet moments of my mind there's some sort of chatter. Thank you for the reply, I appreciate it a lot.

[G.D.]

Flint, Meditation can be achieved multiple ways. It's not really about clearing your mind and sitting in complete silence/emptiness. It actually has a lot to do with thinking. Calming the physical body and mind is to achieve a level of awareness that one may look inwards and inspect their experiences and feelings in a truer sense. So, really, it's like a type of hyper-focused state with the intent to understand yourself. Think about things that help you calm down and try to incorporate whatever they may be into your meditation to help calm your mind.

[Flint]

G.D., Oh! I've never heard anyone say that mediation doesn't have to mean having a clear mind. Thank you! I'll have to look into trying to meditate soon.

[G.D.]

Sept 20, 2016 3:50:11 GMT Flint said:

G.D. , Oh! I've never heard anyone say that mediation doesn't have to mean having a clear mind. Thank you! I'll have to look into trying to meditate soon.

Like most things the west does, it sorely misses the premise behind a lot of concepts related to meditation and spirituality . 

[Flint]

G.D., Yes the west tends to brush lots of things off pertaining to those subjects, along with many other things. In fact the west seems to brush of most everything? But that's a different conversation in itself for another day.

[Flint]

G.D., I've looked into it some more, and I think that I may have a daemon, I'm not 100% on it, but it's definitely a possibility for me to look into, as the description of daemons not having a solid form (aka, and changes but tends not too greatly), fits very well. I've been looking in the "Dedication to Daemons" section, which has been sorely inactive, and I haven't really found any contradicting factors. Just thought I'd give you an update? Also looking for some possible feedback on this.
The creature doesn't seem to have a very solid form, sort of shifting between more wolf or cat like, but almost always heavily looks like a bipedal werewolf/cat. At times it does seem to be more feral.

[G.D.]

Thanks for the update, Flint .

A daemon is essentially the same thing as a tulpa, though others would disagree. But if you get right down to it, both share too many similarities to be able to dismiss that fact. What I'm curious about is why you think the being is external of yourself in such a way that it would manifest separately? Daemons/Tulpas are basically extensions of ourselves, yet we perceive them differently than that.

The shape of the creature is not particularly relevant. My personal opinion, if it really were a daemon/tulpa, would be to stop everything you're doing and pursue it no further. A tulpa given too much power can prove to be quite detrimental to one's health and eventually their life.

The tulpa originates from Buddhism. 'Thought given form', and the way they treat the creation of these creatures is for the sole purpose of teaching themselves important lessons. As you might imagine, when the west got ahold of the concept of a tulpa they quite frankly ruined it and took the thought given form down a very dark path. If you feed too much into the creature, you will give it control over yourself. That control in itself is a facade, since it extends from within you (the creature), but people can fool themselves into just about anything.

My advice: Try to do your best to do with away with it If it really is a daemon/tulpa.

A second course of study would be to try researching guides/totems or a symbiotic link to another creature.

But first, always assume a more logical solution. Hallucinations, DID, Schizophrenia, etc. Eliminate the obvious, the scientifically backed, and the most logical paths before you assume anything spiritual.

[Flint]

Ah, G.D., I see. It isn't a separate, separate being. But it's sort of disconnected from myself in a way, but not completely. I don't actually see it, the reason I know the appearance is that, more of a feeling. I don't have hallucinations, and it's very likely I do not have DID or Schizophrenia.

If your advice is to try doing away with it, that just might be for the best. I haven't exactly felt it for a week or so anyways, moving focus off it completely could cause it to disappear.

[G.D.]

I would highly advise getting rid of it. Though that's up to you.

[Flint]

Oct 7, 2016 3:22:15 GMT G.D. said:

I would highly advise getting rid of it. Though that's up to you.

Yeah, that's just what I'm going to do.