Oh joy...continued confusion...
Dec 10, 2010 21:34:22 GMT
Post by Astral on Dec 10, 2010 21:34:22 GMT
Okay, my thoughts are scrambled, but go something like this:
Because my wolf kin supposedly became Earth-bound, she (I) changed color and, quite possibly, her name. But, is she really the same wolf as the wolf in my past life memory?
The fact that this Earthly wolf is pure white and has an opposite of pure black makes me wonder if those two wolves are really just the conflicting balances within me projected in animal form...but then I think back to my past life memory and I know the "demon" wolf then was black, however, not pure black-- mind you. And I was light grey.
Are those black wolves indeed one and the same or are they two separate individuals? I don't know. If that is the case then my wolf kin is really light grey with a black wolf demon-opposite.
But then, why would the pull towards the Northern Plains be so fiercely strong? And why would I have even had original puzzle-piece "dream shifts" (referring to the dreams about the arctic and grey wolves...from earlier times) and why would it result in feeling like these wolves belonged in an actual place? I don't know. However, those wolves would always fight each other to the death in bizarre places, attracting human attention. And I would be human changing into form, as the other would be human changing into his form. And we would always "rise again" never able to be truly killed and I could heal myself.
You understand my confusion? I should really meditate on this--which I will be able to do over the Winter break. I have a feeling I've been going about this all wrong...
If I have been, then that means that my wolf form is truly otherworldly and a light grey color. Her name and eye color has yet to be discovered...unless her name really is Astral...The demon-opposite is still a demon wolf and he's still of a black color.
I don't know if I made any sense. Sometimes I wonder if I think too much.
Because my wolf kin supposedly became Earth-bound, she (I) changed color and, quite possibly, her name. But, is she really the same wolf as the wolf in my past life memory?
The fact that this Earthly wolf is pure white and has an opposite of pure black makes me wonder if those two wolves are really just the conflicting balances within me projected in animal form...but then I think back to my past life memory and I know the "demon" wolf then was black, however, not pure black-- mind you. And I was light grey.
Are those black wolves indeed one and the same or are they two separate individuals? I don't know. If that is the case then my wolf kin is really light grey with a black wolf demon-opposite.
But then, why would the pull towards the Northern Plains be so fiercely strong? And why would I have even had original puzzle-piece "dream shifts" (referring to the dreams about the arctic and grey wolves...from earlier times) and why would it result in feeling like these wolves belonged in an actual place? I don't know. However, those wolves would always fight each other to the death in bizarre places, attracting human attention. And I would be human changing into form, as the other would be human changing into his form. And we would always "rise again" never able to be truly killed and I could heal myself.
You understand my confusion? I should really meditate on this--which I will be able to do over the Winter break. I have a feeling I've been going about this all wrong...
If I have been, then that means that my wolf form is truly otherworldly and a light grey color. Her name and eye color has yet to be discovered...unless her name really is Astral...The demon-opposite is still a demon wolf and he's still of a black color.
I don't know if I made any sense. Sometimes I wonder if I think too much.