Finding it difficult...

[Deleted]

So, this is an issue with which I have struggled with for a long while, and was hoping that someone could possibly have an opinion, or maybe some helpful words.

I have clashes between my kintype, and my spirituality/belief system.

Because I consider myself both human and dragon (is it possible to have two souls? A human soul, and a dragon soul? That's something I've struggled with. I know I have a dragon soul, but my beliefs conflict with it too much to feel comfortable.), it is difficult for me to mix both things with my spirituality.

I've found it so hard to practice my beliefs, to pray, to understand the world, while in my heart I know that it is part of my human self completely. (Is it also possible to have race dysphoria, like how we have species dysphoria?) But my dragon self, rejects the idea of prayer, symbolism, and relates only to what it knows- which is a strong pull towards Europe, and things of that nature. (Note: I do not consider myself dragon/humans separate beings, as I am both, but use "dragon self" to identify with the dragon.)

I am repulsed at other dragons, which makes me not want to be around them (however, it has nothing against the people, or any number of dragons on this site), while at the same time, I love them, and find them beautiful creatures. And while I attempt to voice my spirituality, and my beliefs to myself, I somehow feel suppressed, like I am not achieving as much spiritual enlightenment due to the fact that I cannot be completely focused on it, even when I try very hard. My mind tends to wander.

My point is, I feel quite suppressed in my spirituality. I feel that because of my kintype, somehow I am wandering off from where I would like to be, or my mental process is shutting down.

Does anyone have any idea, or the answers to any of my questions, or any words of wisdom/advice?

[artaq]

All depends on what you belive in. However some comments seem to aim to say that you were the dragon in a part life and now into a human shell. Yet with this you seem to have some memory of your past life.

[Deleted]

Don't worry, you aren't the only one with similar ideas. I do believe it is possible to have two souls, or as the way I see it, a soul and a spirit. Your soul being your current physical form, and the spirit being your other self, your kin. I would say, dont sweat not being perfectly in tune with your kin side, we all go through discovery and growing with our kin self. You just need to follow what you feel is right.

[Telegdrian]

@ladysesaya

It is possible to have two souls in one body, as a number of the multiples here can attest to, but I suspect that is not your issue. It is more likely a conflict between your human aspect and your dragon aspect. You were raised as a human by a human family, and so a lot of that culture has been ingrained into you. Your dragon aspect is from a past life and can be a very strong influence as well. What you need to do is to accept the positive aspects from both and try to suppress the negative aspects from both as well.

I have a similar conflict between my human aspect and Equitaur aspect, although it seems in the opposite directions from your conflict. My human side wants to go and get a high paying job and not give a care about the environment. I don't have children and never will, so why should I care what happens to the planet. My Equitaur aspect is very concerned about the way humanity is treating the planet and wants to do something to help change this. Fortunately the Equitaur side is winning out.

So, I think you need to identify the positive aspects of your dragon nature and use these to help you further your spirituality.

[Deleted]

Thank you for giving me some advice. I really appreciate it.

Tele, so you're suggesting that instead of feeling conflicted by my thoughts, I should embrace both of the positive aspects, and merge them together, to incorporate both into my spirituality? That seems reasonable, I can definately give it a try.

I like the point that you made about growing up as a human, and being engrained in the culture (I have human morals, just as the next person does). That really clicks with me- if I had no humanity, and I was just animal purely, I would be in some hospital receiving intensive mental care because I wouldn't know absolutely anything.

I agree with you on what you are saying...thank you for the advice. It helps.

[Telegdrian]

Dec 5, 2010 23:24:07 GMT @ladysesaya said:

Tele, so you're suggesting that instead of feeling conflicted by my thoughts, I should embrace both of the positive aspects, and merge them together, to incorporate both into my spirituality? That seems reasonable, I can definately give it a try.

Yes. I think if you look, you will find features of your dragon aspect that will help you in developing your spirituality, as will your human aspect. You do yourself a disservice by ignoring either aspect, but by embracing the positive aspects of both, you become stronger than either by themselves.

I agree with you on what you are saying...thank you for the advice. It helps.

You are quite welcome. Glad I could help.